Conversations with a Conservative

I always knew that I would want to find out the gender of my babies before they were born - that is just my jam.  Mostly I wanted to find out because I know my weird self and if I bonded with said baby for nine months thinking "it" was a boy and then instead "it" was a she, I knew it would mess with my mind.  Now having actually been pregnant, maybe that wouldn't be the case because I clearly didn't know Dean was a boy until 20 weeks, but I also loved being able to talk to him the rest of the pregnancy and call him by his name. All of that to say, I always thought I would want to create and elaborate, gender specific nursery, until we renovated two houses and I painted more walls than I care to remember.  So one night before we knew Dean was a Dean, I was laying in bed and made the declaration that our nursery would be fairly gender neutral.  We knew we would always want to use that room for the nursery because it is across the hall from our room and the s...

Our 200th conversation!!! That is all the fanfare you get.  It should be something big, but today is a rough one.  I am beyond sleep deprived and although I originally was going to try and write something witty about how sleep deprived I am, and that my baby doesn't sleep, blah, blah, blah - I would probably just get too whiny.  Luckily, I went back and re-read something I wrote just a few days ago and need to re-post it for myself: Okay, now you can slap me for complaining because here is what I know:  God is good/great/enough - HE is all I need.  HE gave me an amazing husband that has been so supportive through life and loves me even at my worse.  HE gave me an incredible baby that just lights up my world, and I know there are so many out there longing for one of their own.  These are the days when I need to cling to God harder because I am weak and about to break on my own, but He is sufficient.  He is enough.  He will uphold me. God...

So I don't want this blog to solely be all about baby, but let's be honest, that is pretty much my life right now (unless you want to hear about the super exciting and glamorous life of a city transportation engineer...yeah I heard the that pin drop, too). Anyway, I will still try to share at least about other things in my life than just inundate you with amazing pictures of my adorable son: Yeah, that's him exploring the ever popular metal mixing bowl :) Okay, was it really so bad that I subjected you to a cute picture of baby? Now onto the meat of this post...baby bags.  Some of you may know and/or remember that I have a weakness for purses.  I have had since probably the day I was born.  My grandparents used to take us Easter dress shopping every year when we were little, and I can remember two years in particular all I wanted was a purse.  I also remember a shopping trip to a mall in Oklahoma City (because that was big time shopping back in the day for m...

Hello?  Is this thing on?  Anyone out there? Probably not.  Let's be honest...you all probably thought I died or something.  Okay, I might be being a bit dramatic, but I really fell off this blogging thing.  I actually had really decided to just quit for now.  I was/am cool with that because when I started blogging I had a lot more free time, but then I realized today that I was needing an outlet for thoughts.  There is only so much you can/should post of Facebook before it looks like you are trying to get pity and since I maybe have 1.5 readers left you can easily ignore my ramblings if you so choose. Guilt.  Oh the ways that feeling encompasses so much of my life these days as a mother.  It is horrible, not what God wants for me, yet I just can't seem to shake it.  Let me just say - motherhood is hard.  Would I change it?  No way.  Do I feel overwhelmed, exhausted and inadequate most days?  Yep. I think this i...

So I didn’t mean to quit blogging for so long, but during the last weeks of pregnancy life seemed to be on fast forward.  Not only were we in full on nesting mode trying to get the house renos mostly done, but I was also busy trying to get work things taken care of as well.  Plus, I was hot and tired so blogging was not a priority. However, our sweet boy is now already 4 weeks old, and I want to record his birth story so I don’t forget.  I am not sure if this will get long, but bear with me if you want to know how it all went down. A couple of months ago the hubby and I took our childbirth classes.  Before going to the class, we were both pretty certain I would be getting an epidural.  I didn’t want a c-section, but no way did I think I could handle the pain.  Well during the class we did a relaxation time and I just focused on Jesus.  It was during this time and the remainder of the class (learning about all of the birth options) that I felt God lea...

Nothing new - we all know Google Reader is about to be laid to rest, which I admit, makes me so sad.  It was easy and simple, and the app worked. I tried Feedly for a while and decided I didn't like (I mean I have used it for months now) so today I just decided to go ahead and jump on the Bloglovin train and I at least like the mobile app better.  However does anyone know how to get it to sort from oldest to newest?  Admittedly, I have spent 3.4 seconds on it, but I thought I would ask.  I'll look around more.  Anyway, follow me there these days :) Follow my blog with Bloglovin Okay, so here are a few random thoughts from the week (I am too lazy to officially link up with anyone today so you just get a little brain dump instead): 1. I know you are all dying to see my latest pregnancy fashion concoctions, and I didn't have time to make it for WIWW this last week so here they are for you now (along with my 30 week picture which we hit today!) Outfit bre...

So I have wanted a barrister’s bookcase for ages and we finally got offered one for FREE!  Of course I took it, but didn’t really know where to put it in our new house.  Well, the husband and I had a brilliant idea (I will give him some credit).  We put it in this little nook in our bedroom across from my dresser and I filled it with shoes – I LOVE IT! Don’t you kind of wish you had one too?  (The top part is a little secretary desk so I can hide books and bills and magazines in there)