So I started off not writing because the whole buying a house thing almost broke me. I admit, stress turns me into the Hulk. I like change, but the actual changing process freaks me out. This is the only reason we haven't started trying for a baby; my hubby new that me+house selling/moving+baby=CRAZY!!!!!! Let's be honest, me+house selling/moving=STRESS BALL OF EMOTIONS and the baby would have probably gotten me committed. I joke that at least I would have had a place to sleep! Anyway, the hubby and I prayed that we would see God in this, know it was His plan, and I kept praying to learn how to give up control. This started back with the PE exam, but I knew I hadn't conquered it yet. The last few weeks were full of "God, I totally trust you, I know you are in this so all is okay" AND "GOD! What are you doing to me? I can't take this one more minute! I'm going crazy!" I knew He was just putting things in the way so we wo...