Conversation #156: A little spring spruce up

We have been working on a few projects around the house, and I am going to just share one little one today.  Our house is 57 years old and sometimes that means things were and will be old.  One of those "things" are the cabinets in our house.  I have cleaned and freshened up the kitchen cabinets quite a bit, but the poor bathroom cabinets didn't get much love when we moved in 5 years ago.  I did wipe them down, but they had years of paint and grime on them so I put down clear contact paper and went about my unpacking.  We did paint the outside of the cabinets when we got to bathroom updates, but those sad dark spaces behind the doors remained the same until last weekend!

I cleaned out all of the stuff we had accumulated over the last 5 years so I could throw away old stuff, organize, and really clean the cabinets:

They were gross, and I'm kind of embarrassed to show the befores.  However, I took out the contact paper, repainted the inside and put everything back with nice shelf liners.  I love storage containers for organizers too!

So much cleaner!  I love that I can easily take things out and put them back in.  I threw away full kitchen trash bag of old gunk.  I love having just what I like to use!  (I clearly have a nail polish issue, but I really do use them all and they are a cheap way to change up the outfit). 

What Spring cleaning have you done lately?


Conversation #155b: If you saw a weird password window pop up...

So I just realized what I needed to do to get this dumb thing from popping up everytime you would click on my blog to view it:

It was for the old Lands' End Canvas blog and I deleted them from my blog roll so you should no longer have that annoying window pop up!  Yipee!  You could always just hit cancel to get past it, but that is super annoying so sorry it took me so long to take care of that.  Hopefully you will enjoy a password free blog experience now :)

Covnersation #155: Fashion Frugal Friday

Okay, so today is the day I will share some outfits with you from the past week (or two since I missed last week).  I thought about not doing this anymore, and I'm not really sure anyone is dying to see my outfits, but I like doing this to keep me from looking like a slub at working and finding new ways to wear my clothes so I don't just want to run out and keep buying more that I don't need!  So, without further ado (oh, and when I put "ish", I can't honestly remember now how much it was, sorry!):

Outfit breakdown:
Jacket, Sears, $9
Tank, Lands End, $7
Pants, Talbots, $13ish
Shoes, Lands End Canvas, $15ish
Yellow Leather Tote, Halogen from Nordstrom, $49

Outfit breakdown:
Top, The Limited, $10
Navy pants, Gap, $12
Shoes, Lands End Canvas, $32

Outfit breakdown:
Top, JCPenney, $7
Pants, H&M, $12
Sandals, Lands End Canvas, $13
Necklace, made by me

Outfit breakdown (inspired from Pinterest):
Cardi, Lands End Canvas, $15
Tee, Lands End, $5
Pants, NY & Co, $20
Patent leather heels, Talbots, $15

Sorry picture this picture and the next are blurry - was trying to snap fast before coworker in the bathroom thought I was crazy!
Outift breakdown (inspired from Banana Republic):
Denim shirt, Gap, years ago
Skirt, Target, $10
Sandals, American Eagle Outfitters, had gift card
Necklace, J.Crew outlet, $5

Outfit breakdown:
Silk blouse, J.Crew outlet, $15ish
Pants, JCPenney, $18
Sandals, J.Crew via ebay, $6
Necklace, Anthropologie, $10

Outfit breakdown:
Cardi, Gap Outlet, $15
Maxi dress, Dillard's, $15
Tank, J.Crew, $10
Sandals, Lands End Canvas, $20ish
Leather bag (my recent purchase that I love), Talbots, $60 (a little bit of a splurge for me, but a great deal!)

Outfit breakdown:
Cardi, Lands End Canvas, $15
Dress, J.Crew, $20
Sandals, Lands End Canvas, $13
Necklace, American Eagle Outfitters, $7ish
Leather Bag, Talbots, $60 (told you I loved it!)

So, what did y'all where this week?


Conversation #154: I love butter!

Let's be a bit lighter today...what do you say?

Okay, I do love butter (but try to keep it to a minimum), but today I love Lip Butter by Revlon (this is not a sponsored post - this lil' ol' blog is purely full of my opinions!)

I have always struggled to find a lip color that I liked, stayed on somewhat well, and didn't dry out my already naturally parched lips.  I hate the feeling of gloss (like the look), and most lipsticks just made my lips hurt because they were so drying.  I saw an ad with the lovely Emma Stone for the new lip butter awhile back, and I bought some as soon as hit the shelves at my local drug store, and I am in LOVE!

I started wearing just chapstick everyday, but then one day I realized that my fair coloring continued into my lips and that I looked a little sickly without color on them.  Adding a little color just made my whole self feel better, but I dreaded it because of the reasons mentioned above.  Not anymore!  This stuff feels like chapstick to me.  It also stays on pretty well too (I touch up after eating a meal, but otherwise it doesn't wear off too quickly).

I also love the colors (I have a third brighter pink at home, and I'm trying to resist buying more).  I had been wanting to try a red lipstick but was a little afraid to take the plunge.  However, these lip butters are colorful but for some reason less threatening (maybe translucent but still good color, especially if you put more than one layer on) to me so I have decided I like the color on the right (Cherry Tart) for my red.  I know it isn't as bright as some, but it is the perfect "red" for me.  The other color on the right is Berrie Smoothie, and it is just a nice pink color.  I have a more hot pink shade at home that is fun for a pop of color (can't remember the name).  *This was a horribly written paragraph - I apologize.  Not a lot of time on my break to fix it up!

This is a horribly awkward looking pic of me wearing the cherry tart today :)

Anyway, just wanted to pass on my new beauty favorite (I am by no means a beauty pro, but I know what I like).  So, if you want a good feeling, fairly long lasting lipstick, this is for you!  They are pretty cheap by make-up standards, and I just buy a new one when I get a Revlon coupon in the paper inserts.  Let me know if you have tried them and liked them!


Conversation #153: This is a bad day

So I think I have realized I'm not really a daily blogger these days.  That may change in the future, but for now, it is what it is.  I have some light-hearted posts in the works, but today is just a real one.  I am struggling today, and I just need to get my thoughts out of my head.  I'm hoping that will end the pain and keep me from continually mulling over it all.

The wonderful, underlying cause to a lot of my sadness right now is that lovely time of the month.  I have always struggled with huge hormonal changes during my p-----, and some months are just worse than others.  This is one reason I'm terrified to have a child.  I worry that my hormones will be out of control and make me a horrible crazy person all of the time.  I dread that week of placebo pills every month.  Not only do my hormones get the best of me, but I also get migraines during that time.  I really am afraid of trying to get pregnant (but I'm hoping the surge of hormones once I am will balance me out again - here's hoping anyway).

I lost it last night on my poor husband.  It wasn't the first, and sadly probably won't be the last, but it was a pretty bad moment of crazy for me.  If you have been reading my blog for a while, you probably know I over share.  If you know me in real life, you know I'm a pretty open book (especially when asked).  I think that is because I have felt like so many women struggle with similar things, but aren't open, and then it makes me feel more crazy.  I guess I hope that if my being open and honest lets another woman know she isn't alone, well then I can take the embarrassment others might shy away from (which I think is probably "normal" to shy away from it).

Okay, so back to my bad crazy.  I was working on refinishing a dresser (hopefully that will be posted on here soon) and the husband told me he intended me to put the drawer pulls on differently, and I seriously lost it.  I went off on him about that and so many other things (things that I have been upset over before but wouldn't rattle me on a normal non hormonal day).  Eventually I told him I wanted him to leave and go back to his office, but then when he did I realized I didn't really want him to leave, just want to make him mad.  I tried to get him to stay, but he left.  Not sure I blame him.  I was mad, angry, embarrassed, hurt...the list goes on.  However, I couldn't even cry.  I wrote a pure apology email (tried to enlist a little humor) and instead it ended poorly.  We haven't really talked much since then.

Then during my weekly staff meeting, I got a text from my mother that a dear lady to me had passed away.  I was shocked and sad.  I couldn't cry then. 

My boss brought donuts to the meeting.  I am an emotional eater (just one of the many things I'm trying to work on) and I tried to resist, but eventually gave in, and now feel guilty about it.

I finally went home for lunch, and my husband was there.  We didn't talk.  I finally was able to cry - so I did so quietly, alone, in our bedroom. 

I hurt my husband.  I get that he is still wounded.  I rebound quicker than him.  I forgive easier.  I know I have to give him time, but it just hurts and makes me want to eat more comfort food.  Then I just feel bad, etc.  The vicious cycle.  I have prayed a lot.  I have prayed for the Holy Spirit to intercede and mend this.  I have prayed for His power to heal my hurt and to help me not succumb to the hormones of my flesh.  I have prayed for Him to remove my anger.  I have prayed for help in eating better.  But I haven't prayed enough, and that is what I just want to keep doing.  Now that I know Him differently and more intimately, I want to know Him more.  So that is where I go from here.  I want to fall to my knees and cry out to Him - He is the only one who can mend a broken heart and spirit.  In Him, I am a new creation.  I am made whole.  I am His.