Conversation #159: God is bigger than the PE

God is amazing.  Did you know that?  I have shared my spiritual journey here many times over the last couple of months - the journey God has had me on, but I just want to share more as it keeps growing.  I have known this for a little over a three weeks now, but I wasn't quite sure how I wanted to post it.  I got the PE exam results back, and.....I PASSED!!!

I can't tell you how grateful, happy, and excited I am.  I felt such a peace while taking the exam and even after because I literally felt the Holy Spirit there with me.  However, the enemy was trying to rob that peace from me as the weeks ticked by so I had to try to take every thought captive to the Lord.  I knew whatever the outcome was, it was God's will because I finally gave that test to Him and relied on Him to pass it. 

You see, I am reading this book and going through a study with some lovely friends from my church, and it talks about having to break your Outer Man to let your Inner Man rule.  I have to stop trying to control things in life and live for myself, but instead let God break that and rely on Him.  I am still learning and growing in this, but I am so glad I am learning it now (and not 30 years from now). 

The hubby and I had originally "planned" to start trying to get pregnant after I found out the results to my PE exam.  However, about two weeks before I got the results back, He said "no children." At first I was shocked and angry (this didn't all happen in the best way possible), but eventually we talked it all out and I learned that God was just telling him "not now."  This was huge for me to accept and hear because it just confirmed all over again that God is breaking my outer man.  I hear Him asking me, "Do you trust me?  Do trust in my timing?  Will you let me be in control?"

For the last 27 years of my life (so that is pretty much my whole life), I have mostly done things on my terms.  I just wouldn't really even ask God to tell me when - sometimes I did, but for the most part I had a schedule and we were ticking right along.  Then BAM!  No kids.  I won't lie.  This was hard for me at first.  I felt like I lost my dream.  But after a lot of praying and listening, I realized I didn't lose my dream for children, I just lost MY plan and now I would follow HIS plan.  It is actually pretty freeing and comforting to know I am letting God be in control instead of struggling to take it from Him.

It is funny, because just in the last week or so, hubby has grown closer to wanting children soon now.  I won't say God can't work in a couple of weeks, but even so, I am still just relying on Him for the timing.  Even if we started trying, which we haven't yet, God is most definitely in control and will make it happen when He wants it to.  I want to remember that because I am a control freak and sort of stress and freak out easily when things aren't going how I planned, and I think doing that while trying to get pregnant will make it slightly horrible for us.  Instead, I just want to let go and let God.  When He blesses us, it will be right.

That is all.  This took me a while to write for some odd reason, and there is probably a lot I forgot to say, but I wanted to get this out there and post something since it has been a few weeks (busy ones I might add).  Also, I have been so tired lately so my outfits have been sort of lack luster so nothing too exciting to post.  The rest of our summer is less busy (well after July 14 - baby shower for my sis) so hopefully I'll be less tired and more motivated to type!  Until then - take care, readers :)


Conversation #158: A sale I had to tell you about...

If you have read my blog for a while (especially if you are a reader from my old blog), then you know I have a love affair with a certain brand: Lands' End Canvas.  I started off loving Lands' End, and then really fell in love with their new Canvas line as soon as it launched.  I own many items from that line.  Anyway, they are doing a few days of something they are calling Destination Deals.  The first few days they had some shorts on sale for $12.  They were cute and I loved them, but I held off knowing that working 5 days a week in a business casual office doesn't lend me much time to wear cute shorts.  I already have enough.

However, yesterday, their deal was on dresses, and I jumped on that opportunity because I LOVE dresses.  They are so easy and comfortable for the warm summer days down here in Texas.  Plus, I can wear them to work!  Go here and you can see all of the cute dresses for sale.  They are marked down to $34, but if you use the promo code listed on their page, you get an extra 20% off!!!  So since I already ordered mine, and I don't have to worry about y'all stealing them (I kid!) here is what I got:
100% silk, was $130, I got it for $27.20

100% cotton jersey knit, was $60, I got it for $27.20

100% cotton eyelet, was $100, I got it for $27.20 (this is SOLD OUT online)

I don't know if they will all be winners on me, but the nice things is that you can return LEC stuff to Sears!  I have definitely had to do this before, but not often.  I love the quality of LEC, and I could easily outfit my entire closet in only their clothing. (oh, and I got free shipping on my order, but I don't know if the code requires your total to be over $50 or not).  Okay, go check out the sale quick before they are all gone (they have a lot of other dresses too!)

Oh, and this is not a sponsored post or anything.  I am happily a Lands' End Canvas advocate on my own accord because I just love them that much - they don't have to give me anything to make me love them!


Conversation #157: Show Us Your Life

Howdy - happy Friday!

So I have a lot of blog ideas, but haven't sat down to really write them yet so today I decided I wanted to participate in Kelly's "Show Us Your Life" series.  I have done it before, and it is pretty fun!

Today is Living Rooms.

Mine isn't to fancy, but I like it that way.  I like visitors to feel like they are at "home."  I want it to be cozy, comfy, and inviting.  I also love have a mixture of books and objects on our shelves.  Here are a few pictures to enjoy:

 This is an overall view of the living room.  I hate blocking windows, but after 5 years, we have learned this really is the best set-up for our living room.  Plus, the little loveseat doesn't block too much of the huge window so we still can see out just fine.  I decided before we got married to do a red, brown, cream color scheme in our living room.  I love that it is warm and cozy, but not too neutral either (I love color).  Therefore, we kept this color scheme even after we moved into our house. The color on the walls is a very pale beige (I say it is creamer with a little coffee mixed in!)  I probably would have put a slightly darker color on the wall, but we were trying to keep the room open and light with our darker furniture.

It is funny because this couch and loveseat are the only two NEW pieces of furniture we have ever bought (other than our mattress).  I love them though :)

  Here is a picture of couch/pillows and artwork.  I got that little coffee table for $5 at a garage sale.  It is solid wood (which I hate painting wood), but my husband doesn't believe in area rugs and I didn't want a wood table on the wood floor - it needed more contrast.  I was so excited when I found it because our living room isn't huge so we did need a scale appropriate table.  I also love my pillows.  I have recovered them probably 5 times by now, but I think the current fabric is my favorite ever.  Cozy but more sophisticated.

Here is a view looking back from the door/hallway you see in the next picture.  It just shows the layout of the room a bit and our front door.

 This view is just to show our "built-ins" better.  They aren't really built-in because they aren't attached to the wall.  We originally intended to, but it didn't work out.  However, we don't plan on taking it with us or anything - it is all attached together.  The handy husband and I designed and built this together.  We are pretty proud of it.  It was a big project it and I just love it!  We didn't have a fireplace in our house so we bought a nice "fake" fireplace on craigslist that came with this beautiful mantle and then designed the piece around it so it would look like it all went together.

These are just a couple of close-ups of all the books and pictures on either side of the TV/fireplace.

Lastly, this is a little nook in our living room that we made the office.  If there is an office day on SUYL, then you'll see this again (and maybe more picked up), but I figure this is real life.  The desk catches a lot of stuff throughout the week.  This is supposed to be the dining room, but we have an eat-in kitchen and need office space more.  The husband made this furniture too, and we aren't sure if it will stay or move with us.  I am just so glad I have a handy husband - I didn't know that when I married him!

Hope you enjoyed a little tour of my simple living room.  Check out all of the others at the link above!