I really have no words. I have no children yet so I can't even come close to knowing what it would feel like to lose my baby, my child. I also have no way to even begin to understand how someone can shoot anyone, but especially children, basically point blank. Only someone that is very disturbed. There is no way to explain it. I don't even know the proper response to most of this other than I am praying and will continue to pray for those hurt and wounded by this horrible act. All I can do in any situation is to turn to God, my Father, for peace, love and comfort. I truly don't know how people make it through a day in this fallen world without Him.
First, I want to share this link from Melanie's blog, Big Mama - it is touching, perfectly said. Read it here.
Also, if you feel unsure or are questioning why God would allow this, read THIS. The only thing that helps me understand these tragedies and find any sort of peace or comfort is because I know God works through ALL and redeems ALL, and that someday I will understand all of this and His glory.
Lastly, I really don't want to get into the gun control debate today. I wrote this post, sadly, not too long ago after the Aurora tragedy that you can read if you want a more lengthy thought. I will say this, we will never have a world without guns. They already exist - you will never recover them all. That is the world we live in, not the utopia of a gun-free world. Therefore, the idea to try and take away all guns scares me more than the current world we live in. I don't say that lightly. I am seriously questioning the decision to have a baby because if I let it, it terrifies me to think of raising a child in this world. However, if there is ever a night I am laying in bed and hear someone enter my house, you better believe that I want to be able to protect my child from that person who didn't care if there was a gun ban law or not. Like I said in my previous post, drugs still exist, prohibition didn't work. The answer: Jesus Christ. You see, it is becoming clearer and clearer to me how our Country is turning from God and yet at the same time is searching for control over chaos (tragedy, finances, health). The only way to peace and security is Jesus. The only way to find control is to submit to His perfect will. He loves us all and grants me peace so many times a day. He is the Light of the World. With Him, there is no fear. I have said enough. Tomorrow will be a blog day of silence to remember all of those precious souls in Newtown.
I just want to leave you with lyrics to a song we sang at church this last Sunday by Matt Redman (from metrolyrics.com):
Even though I walk through the valleyOf the shadow of deathYour perfect love is casting out fear And even when I’m caught in the middleOf the storms of this lifeI won’t turn back, I know You are near And I will fear no evilFor my God is with meAnd if my God is with meWhom then shall I fear?Whom then shall I fear? Oh no, You never let goThrough the calm and through the stormOh no, You never let goIn every high and every lowOh no, You never let goLord, You never let go of me And I can see a light that is comingFor the heart that holds onA glorious light beyond all compare And there will be an end to these troublesBut until that day comesWe’ll live to know You here on the earth And I will fear no evilFor my God is with meAnd if my God is with meWhom then shall I fear?Whom then shall I fear? Oh no, You never let goThrough the calm and through the stormOh no, You never let goIn every high and every lowOh no, You never let goLord, You never let go of me You keep on lovingAnd You never let go Singing Oh no, You never let goThrough the calm and through the stormOh no, You never let goIn every high and every lowOh no, You never let goLord, You never let go of me Yes, I can see a light that is comingFor the heart that holds onAnd there will be an end to these troublesBut until that day comesStill I will praise You, still I will praise You I can see the light Yes, I can see a light that is comingFor the heart that holds onAnd there will be an end to these troublesBut until that day comesStill I will praise You, still I will praise You Oh no, You never let goThrough the calm and through the stormOh no, You never let goIn every high and every lowOh no, You never let goLord, You never let go of me So strongSo wiseSo loving Lord Oh no, You never let goThrough the calm and through the stormOh no, You never let goIn every high and every lowOh no, You never let goLord, You never let go of me Oh, Lord, You never let go of me
I am back with 7 Quick Takes again this week - I kind of enjoyed last Friday. Check out Jen's and the others here.
1. I have to share this - if you have a heart, I warn you, it might make you cry! This was a story I saw when reading my daily Cultural Commentary post - check out the full story here. Basically, this young boy has cerebral palsy and is on his school's wrestling team. He finally got his chance to wrestle a very kind-hearted young man and this is the video, but seriously ready the story because I think it will encourage you!
2. So I sang the song this week "Reunited and it feels so good"...to my skillet. Yep, I have been attempting to "cook" in our kitchen with only a stockpot for about the last 4 weeks or so. I hadn't been able to locate the rest of our cookware, but I finally did this week and made stir-fry for real. It was awesome!
3. I am tired of getting headaches everyday. Trying to get pregnant means I need to go off some of my migraine meds - the good news, now I know they were working. The bad news: now they can't work. I will survive, but getting more sleep would probably help too.
4. I love Christmas specials. Blake Shelton's was pretty hilarious and I love Reba McIntyre. Although the part where they shot a bunch of the claymation characters was so wrong, it was also so funny. I can't wait for Michael Buble's this Monday - although I have to say I like him singing better than trying to be funny, but I will still be watching!
5. I still have no Christmas decorations up, but hopefully I will rectify that this weekend. I am reading a Christmas Carol though so that helps. Is it weird though that I picture the Disney characters when reading the real book? Probably. Oh well.
6. I miss The Sing Off. If you have never watched, you need to. However, I don't know when it is coming back. It used to be a Christmas season show so I miss it right now, but I think it might come back after the first of the year. Anyway, keep an ear out for it (haha) because they are always seriously talented.
7. Speaking of singing shows, the hubby and I kind of love The Voice. Like all shows, some aspects annoy us, but overall the talent is AMAZING! I will almost be happy if anyone wins because I love them all, but there are a couple I do love slightly more. Anyway, basically each week I feel like I just watched a really awesome concert - the show last week was the best. Check it out too.
Okay, that is all I have for today. Also, don't forget to go check out my 7th post ever over at Misty's awesome blog. I will warn you, it is a bit political, but it sort of makes me laugh now what I was upset about that day. It is so much worse in my opinion now, but it is what it is. Overall, God is in control and bigger than any president, ruler, king, politician, etc. I get to rest in that peace today and always! Sure, some days get me down and I want to shake a million people and say, "what are you thinking?" when it comes to politics and the future of the Country. However, my constant is the Lord and I am so glad I get to celebrate Him this season and always! Merry Christmas!!!
If you are following along with Misty's Christmas Link-up party, then you may know that my 6th post ever on this blog was a conversation about babies and how I was so not ready for one. Check it all out here!
Well, my how things have changed in a couple of years (well not quite two). Now I am longing for a baby like crazy - I want nothing more than to be pregnant! See, I told everyone eventually I would be ready to not be ready. I know once a baby comes, I will be freaked out and wonder how I will care for that little life, but I am so ready for that.
You see, back a couple of years ago my husband was still in law school, and A LOT has changed since then. He graduated, passed the bar, started and now runs a successful solo practice, I took the PE exam and passed, got a promotion, and we moved to a bigger house ready to fill with kids! God has been so good and gracious and blessed us so much over the last couple of years - none of the above would have been possible without Him! Now I am trying to remember to trust Him and His perfect timing (it has all been perfect so far) when it comes to babies and getting pregnant. We have only been trying for a couple of months so it isn't like we are in the throes of infertility. I am not freaking out or anything. I am just impatient and want to be pregnant now, so I know I need surrender that to Him and let it be in His time and in His perfect way.
Anyway, I just thought it would be kind of fun to update on the whole baby thing since it has pretty much made 180 since that 6th post.
How about the rest of you? Have you taken a look back to see where your brain was in the beginning? It has been kind of fun!
P.S. If you read my 5th post about Missions and traveling - here is a little update. We have yet to take a Missions trip outside of the country, but I do hope to someday. We did get to take a little trip to the Dominican Republic to visit friends and celebrate being done with law school and the bar exam (so I have a passport now!) Of course, that was a fun touristy trip, but we did get to see some of the local areas while driving to and far - just seeing how they live and getting to hear about it from my friend who is from there is enlightening to hear about how others live. It also makes me truly grateful for this great country and having grown up here. I really hope to not take that for granted and be thankful to that and God for His blessings daily!!!
*I discovered my problems with posting pictures were due to the fact I was using Google Chrome - seems weird that all Google products weren't playing nice together. Oh well!
So I decided to link-up today with the Pleated Poppy for What I Wore Wednesday - this is my first time. I'm not a stay-at-home mom, but I think I am still allowed to link-up. A while back I realized that I was becoming very lazy in my dressing for work because I work at a city where most people just don't care what they look like. That sounds bad - I work with great people, but most are over 50 and either the men have no clue or the women are going through menopause and where knit pants and shirts everyday that sort of look like pajamas in my opinion. Now I don't have a banner day everyday, but I realized I was pretty much wearing khakis and a polo shirt everyday for a while so I started trying to challenge myself to dress better - it makes me feel better and I think presents a more professional image in my job as well. So here are my most recent outfits:
Silk Blouse, J. Crew, $? (I don't remember)
Pants, Gap, $13
Red Leather wedges, Sole Society, $40 (LOVE THEM - join here if you want great shoes at great prices!
Necklace, JCP (old), $16
Sweater, Lands' End Canvas, $16 (I think)
Cords, Lands' End Canvas, $20ish
Boots, Eddie Bauer, $62
Necklace, local place - old, $5
Lacey Tank, J.Crew, $15
Cardigan, Lands' End Canvas, $16
Skirt, Talbots, $23
Leather boots, Banana Republic via Ross, $40 (5 years or so ago)
Necklace, Coldwater Creek, $10
Jacket, Lands' End, $30 (I love the back detail)
Top, LOFT, $18
Pants, ? - I honestly can't remember what pants I'm wearing this day, haha
Leather boots, Target, gift
Necklace, J.Crew Factory, $8
What have you been wearing lately? Link-up over at the Pleated Poppy!
Misty over at Across and Down a Little decided to host a fun Christmas link-up party where we count-up to Christmas by linking back to our very first posts ever. Technically I had a blog before this one that grew to be bigger (not huge, I think I had like 140 followers), but then I became bitter over a blogging thing so I took a break for a while. I started anew with this one, but it has been almost two years (okay a few months shy) since I started this one so it actually was fun to go back and look at where it began. You can always scroll over to the side and check-out my archives, but make sure and head here so you can see mine and others first posts.
I would love to add a picture here for you, but Blogger and Google Chrome don't play nice apparently on my computer so I need to go back to use LiveWriter I think to make this all work. Anyone else having these problems with uploading pictures?