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Conversation #119: A series of rants - you have been warned!


I'm sorry, but I have to get it all out.  This last week was one for the record books for me, folks.  (oh speaking of a pet peeve/rant, one of my coworkers loves to use the word "folks" but he pronounces the "L" in it too.  Think of the word "bulk" but add "fo" instead of "bu").  Anyway, let the venting commence.

First off, this is a prayer request and just was a source of sadness for me: one of my good friends was diagnosed with breast cancer.  I thought it was so ironic that they got the diagnosis during Breast Cancer Awareness month, but it freaks me out.  First of all, she is almost exactly a year older than me, and I'm only 26.  She also just celebrated her only daughter's first birthday in August and they were hoping to start trying for more babies soon.  Due to the type of cancer and treatment, she may not be able to have any more biological children or even try to get pregnant (they think she may have gotten the cancer from the natural hormones while pregnant).  Anyway, she is the most positive, joy-filled, faithful people I know, and I know her and the hubby are already placing her in God's care and they just pray that God is glorified and known through all of this.  All I can say is WOW.  They are such a joy in my life and I am just praying that God's plan be full healing and that His power his seen by all.  This is still a bit of rant though, because I still just can't believe it is true.  I'm not mad at God at all, just confused and sad.  He allows me to be those things.

Okay, now onto the petty and annoying because really the above puts everything into perspective.  It is that time of the month, and that just induces emotions that make me frustrated.  Then on top of that, I can't get certain people in my work life to do their jobs, and it is reflecting poorly on me and holding up my work.  The most frustrating part about it - they are my bosses!  They live in a world of procrastination (well, mostly one) and we have had a contract since January that needs to be signed and sent back - it is so maddening.

All of my sports teams lost last weekend, boo :(  I hope today proves better for my alma mater and all of my other favorite teams. 

My husband and I had a poopy week of disconnecting.  I heard something he said wrong (although I still think he feels this way) and it just made for a tension filled week.  I hate when we aren't on the same page - it is just so unsettling.  Long story short, my husband isn't a huge fan of my glasses, but that is all that is comfortable to me so now I feel stuck.  It isn't a big deal, but it felt like it to me.  Oh well, we'll deal with it.

Lastly, Google all decided to go and change everything up with its programs, and so far I'm not a fan.  I feel like the contrast and readability of gmail and Google reader commands is hard to see (for example, if you want to "star" something, it is hard to see and find), and it just keeps sort of messing up and freezing!

Okay, that is all. My rant is over.  I think I typed so hard and fast that my wrist hurts now too.  Really, nothing matters in this post other than that I ask for prayers for my amazing friend.  I know I will get so many more blessings from God through her during this period of life than I will be able to give her, but I just hope I can be a good support for her, at least a little. 

I pray that you and all your loved ones are well and healthy today, and that you share with them how much you love them.

Comments

Gail said…
Jessica,

Sorry you had a bad week. :( I'm so sorry for your friend too. That is heart-breaking! It's neat to see how much faith she has though...what a testimony!

Hope things start looking up soon.....and let's get together soon too! I need a good chat with you!

Hugs,
Gail
Stori said…
Awww, I don't know how I missed this! I am so sorry about everything. Hopefully now (3 weeks later) things are a little bit better. I will be praying for your friend. She is pretty close to my age and our babies are pretty close in age so I can only imagine what they are going through! I am so thankful that they are leaning on our Lord at this time.

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