I really have no words. I have no children yet so I can't even come close to knowing what it would feel like to lose my baby, my child. I also have no way to even begin to understand how someone can shoot anyone, but especially children, basically point blank. Only someone that is very disturbed. There is no way to explain it. I don't even know the proper response to most of this other than I am praying and will continue to pray for those hurt and wounded by this horrible act. All I can do in any situation is to turn to God, my Father, for peace, love and comfort. I truly don't know how people make it through a day in this fallen world without Him.
First, I want to share this link from Melanie's blog, Big Mama - it is touching, perfectly said. Read it here.
Also, if you feel unsure or are questioning why God would allow this, read THIS. The only thing that helps me understand these tragedies and find any sort of peace or comfort is because I know God works through ALL and redeems ALL, and that someday I will understand all of this and His glory.
Lastly, I really don't want to get into the gun control debate today. I wrote this post, sadly, not too long ago after the Aurora tragedy that you can read if you want a more lengthy thought. I will say this, we will never have a world without guns. They already exist - you will never recover them all. That is the world we live in, not the utopia of a gun-free world. Therefore, the idea to try and take away all guns scares me more than the current world we live in. I don't say that lightly. I am seriously questioning the decision to have a baby because if I let it, it terrifies me to think of raising a child in this world. However, if there is ever a night I am laying in bed and hear someone enter my house, you better believe that I want to be able to protect my child from that person who didn't care if there was a gun ban law or not. Like I said in my previous post, drugs still exist, prohibition didn't work. The answer: Jesus Christ. You see, it is becoming clearer and clearer to me how our Country is turning from God and yet at the same time is searching for control over chaos (tragedy, finances, health). The only way to peace and security is Jesus. The only way to find control is to submit to His perfect will. He loves us all and grants me peace so many times a day. He is the Light of the World. With Him, there is no fear. I have said enough. Tomorrow will be a blog day of silence to remember all of those precious souls in Newtown.
I just want to leave you with lyrics to a song we sang at church this last Sunday by Matt Redman (from metrolyrics.com):
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